I'm still here!!

Sorry I haven't posted lately!! I've been super busy all week getting ready for school and stuff like that.
I haven't been home since Thursday because some of the girls from my youth group at church and I had a little movie weekend at a youth worker's house. I don't think I've EVER watched so many movies haha. I'm glad I got to go though. I really needed a weekend with girls:) I got to talk to some girls that I don't usually talk to. I feel a lot closer to them now and that is SUCH a great feeling.
Of course... there was some drama with the bestie but that's all fixed and life is good again:)
And the girls all made fun of me for who I like and it was so funny because he's in our youth group and they kept dropping hints and I was just like "Guys, shut up!!" Haha I love them:)
Today in church, our pastor talked about forgiveness during communion. And it got me thinking... If God can forgive me for everything that I've done wrong, I can find it in my heart to forgive those who have done wrong to me.
This year's going to be different. I can feel it. And I'm glad because I'm not exactly proud of who I was last year. I tried to impress everyone around me and be someone that wasn't the real me. And I am SO not proud of that. This year, I'm going to live my life for me and only me. I don't need to impress anyone. I'm going to live my life for God. Our youth minister was talking about how school is the biggest mission opportunity that we have and that really opened my eyes. This year I'm going to go into school looking for those lost people. I'm not going to use names so I'll just use letters... But our youth minister, C, gave us these little cards that he calls 4x4 cards. It's just these little note cards with 4 lines on the back and you're supposed to list 4 lost people on there, pray for them 4 times a week, and invite them to church and build a relationship with them and stuff like that. My mission for the first week of school is to fill out that card and begin the process of leading them to Christ.
I'm not very good with my religion and I'm trying my hardest to change that. I was baptized 2 years ago and I think I did it for all the wrong reasons. When I think I'm ready I'm going to have a conversation with my youth minister about that. I'm really repentant about it because I want to bring glory to God and everything but right now, it's kind of tough for me to do that. I'm going to change myself for the better. That's the promise I have made to myself.

I kind of babbled here at the end hehe. But tomorrow starts a new era. A new beginning:) I'm going to take that chance and change.

Peace, Love and Rockets:)

Hannah <3